If Only i could turn back time to make you happy, i gladly would.

Today. 15March. 8.45am. Home Team Academy. CCK. Dear boyfriend, you're stepping into a new environment. I trust you, please don't destroy that trust. I love you so much and i gave you everything. I'll change for the better, i'll prove it to you. No more childish acts and attitude. Takecare dear, I'll always pray for your safety and health.

I do miss every single moments i had with you. Even the bad ones. Cause everytime we fought, we would eventually get back together. I remember when you said, you wanted to make me hate you. I won't hate you dear, no matter how harsh you treat me. Cause i know i've hurt you myriad of times and you hold on to that. So now, no matter how many times you've hurt me. I would just absorb it, just like the way you did.

So today being the first day you enlist in NS. you must be very tired. Say byebye early in the morning, and now it's already 11.41pm. I texted you at 10plus just now and you didn't reply. Well, i have to understand. You must be tired. Sleep well dear. Goodnight and sweetdreams.

I'll always love you. <3

You never hurt me, It's always me who's been hurting you. I never had any intentions at all for hurting you. It just did, i can't control my emotions. I love you so much that i'm scared to lose you. I know, i gotta work on my attitude. Yes, i kept saying over and over again that i need time. You don't know how hard i tried to be everything that you want me to. Everytime i tried, it doesn't work. Am i trying hard enough?

You're perfect for me. Just too perfect for a girl like me. I'm afraid you realise that you don't need me in your life and also you realise that there's someone out there better for you compare to me. I'm sorry i can't be perfect. I don't know what you want. And as you say, i'm not worthy of your love. I wasn't there when you need me the most. I gave you my everything. You've done your part by taking care of me, if you leave me. I'll hope you're happy, cause i never will. I will always love you, no matter how you treat me or maybe you don't love me anymore.

Sorry Fahmi

It was your chalet, and i really thought that you want to spend time with your friends, I didn't know that you want me there with you. I really don't know. I just want you to be happy. I don't want to be a busybody standing beside you while you're with your friends. I don't know what you guys are talking about, therefore i don't have any rights to be with you at that point of time. Bby, i'm sorry. Eventhough i'm unhappy that day, i hide it. Cause i want to see that you're happy. i'm not jealous, cause there wasn't any girls at that point of time. When you leave to meet your friends, that's where my jealousy came. I really wanna spend my time with you, but i'm scared that i might be making the wrong move. You're so happy, i don't wanna ruin everything.

I only hoped you would be mine for as long as i live.♥

Dear God, give me strength. i don't want this to end.

Pictures up there was taking at Boyfie's chalet. Other picts at Facebook. So go check uh. Well, he book in on Thursday and Book out on Saturday. I went there only on friday cause thurs busy and saturday he book out pagi. So no use i datang. Bi, sorry i never teman you on thurs. busy helping mummy for your stuffs on friday bbq. So yeah. At the chalet, didn't get to spend time with boyfriend. Cause his friends a lot and i was like very malu2 and don't want to be sucha busybody. So instead, i layan his adeq and mum. Lucky im not alone, if not. I would be freaking bored. huhu. Err, i dont want elaborate somemore uh. Lazy to type and i dont know what to say also. Didnt spend alot of time with him. Cause i thought he's happy with his friends around.

Anyway, today maybe i just sit at home la.. He is busy packing his stuff for NS on tuesday. So, i have to understand, even if i'm sad. nevermind, have to put my feelings aside. I have to think about your feelings also. Better takecare of yourself. Jangan asyik laparrr jer! have to tahan. And you better sleep at night, I know you insomnia. But just close your eyes and then sleep. Oh, and don't forget me! if you ever forget me, i'll be very hurt. boohuhu

"Only One" - Yellow Card

I promise you that you're gonna be the only one in my life. I love you so much that i wouldn't wanna lose you ever. No matter how bad we fight or no matter how you would treat me. I never wanna lose you. I'm trying to change myself for you. I have to sacrifice what i am now to be what you want me to. Yes, it's hard. Cause i never listen to anyone before. Even my previous lovers. I treat you way differently. Dear, no matter what. I'm still loving you.

Unseperatable.